How can emptiness be so heavy?

You're scared, aren't you? Of the human void that surrounds you. All your rage is slowly fading into agony and distress, you're ostensibly lost in some cataclysmic devastating scenario of bleak emptiness, your subconscious continues to be plagued by self-doubt, every time that you introspect you are met with aching nothingness, the air out of your lungs deflates and you can't help but wonder, how can emptiness be so heavy?

While you sit here frozen with apathy, all that surrounds you is the vainglorious boast of human infallibility, your incompetence forces you to give in to self-rejection and degradation of your self-esteem. As soon as things seemingly start to align, the inner crutch slips, and the wounds from the past rise to the surface rearing their demeaning heads. Work your way through your fears, remember your virtues, things have an unprecedented way of working out. Your self is not so weightless nor is it whole and unbroken, just soldier on and fight right back.

All the negativity that you've consumed about yourself is wholly unworthy of feeding and it's wholly untrue. You may not find any reason for your existence but it's all just conjecture and gloom. Inevitably we as humans strive for a sense of purpose and meaning for our existence so seek one and seize it. Listen to the bells of hope that are ringing in the depths of your soul, chime away with its ringing for a moment, and feel your breath course, consider life as a worthy opponent calling for you to live another day, to gradually find purpose and happiness, to live a life that you can't wait to wake up to, consider it as a bristling wall of strength shielding you from the coldness of a meaningless life and a pointless death.

Search for yourself out of the forlorn crowds that only offer vacant stares and superficial conversations, search for yourself invaluable and quiet introspection. Fear and faith both require us to blindly believe in something unknown, it's our choice to pick fear of failure of the unknown or unconditional faith in ourselves. Cut the cords that serve you with negative energy and are detrimental to your emotional well-being. Remember that what you're working towards is far more formidable and worthy than what you've left behind. While each and every tail glorifies change endlessly, we often lack the means required to cope with it. But what must be eliminated shall be eliminated, that is what transformation requires of us, vulnerability, hope, and optimism. Things have an uncanny way of working out just believe in yourself.

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